Monday, February 28, 2011

Good Feeling

So.. there is a new guy in the picture. I think. We will call him BJ. He is a friend of a friend and i have always thought he was really attractive. And he helped push my car when it wasn't cooperating, but he had a girlfriend then. He recently broke things off with her, then went after A, but A said he wasn't her type. I was being myself, and i know im a flirt but i wasnt necessarily trying to go after BJ, just seemed to end up that way. I wasnt even sure if Friday night was a date, but my whole family and people on the vb team seemed to think it was. Since he picked me up, we went to dinner, he paid, then he paid for the hockey game too.

I dont even know what to say about him. He is one of those people that knows everyone, and everyone knows them. He could could pick almost anyone, but for some reason he is going after me. We are going to hang out on Thursday now, going to a movie i believe. I just feel good about this. It's been a while since I've had a good feeling about a guy.
I mean, i liked DD from the one time i met him, but I had a feeling nothing was going to come from it.
i knew i didnt want a relationship with Stout at all.
with SBB i knew it would never amount to anything even though we flirt off and on.
Blady definitely wasnt going to work considering the whole him having a girlfriend thing.
Freshie I had an okay feeling after the first hangout, but that went downhill fast!
Special K i knew would end up hurting me..
and with Nately, i knew i would break his heart.

Sometimes I hate my intuition about things, but right now i like it, because BJ is an athletic geek, just like me. I never wanted a straight up geek, but i never that the jocks would want me, even though I'm a partial jock. He is this interesting blend between the two. He isn't an ass either, he is a genuinely a good guy. We have a lot in common, we even have the same birthday!! He is 3 years older than me, but still, crazy.

I just like him, and want to see how this plays out.

Friday, February 4, 2011

yeah...

FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK!!!!

things keep going from shitty to shittier in a matter of seconds.. ugh. And all i want to do is sleep now.