Cars

I find it such a tease to see a really REALLY nice little sports car, with an old guy in it.. I think it should be a rule that only good looking guys should be allowed to drive them. Cause i mean who really wants to be looking at this amazing car and see a middle aged, baling, slightly chubby, older man? It just doesnt fit. All these guys having their "mid-life-crisis" need to grow up and just accept that half of their possible life its gone. Too bad, so sad. But i dont want to be looking at a nice car then be sorry for looking cause of who is driving it.

~nooblet

Cute Little Things

Why does it take so much to get cute things out of my guy. Took me forever to get him to say that he wanted me in his arms :). He can make my day by just saying something cute or sweet to me unprompted. But it doesn't usually happen. I had to start it by saying that i missed him. Or asking him if i looked pretty in the picture. I want him to just say something, out of the blue. Cause he knows how to make me smile.

Swiggle

So when i am sitting/standing or whatever, i tend to move some part of my body back and forth. And one day i created a word to describe this random motion. Swiggle. I was sitting on a stool, swaying from side to side cause the stool has a swivel top. And out of my mouth came the word swiggle. Now, my mom thought it was kinda cute, and my guy just looked at me like i was crazy. So what, i make my own vocabulary! And so the word swiggle was born. Now whenever i Sw (sway, swivel, swirl) wiggle, it will be called a swiggle.

Moods and The Boy

I am just in this horrible mood currently. Half of me wants to cry and the other half of me is an undecided emotion. Doesn't help that my guy is oblivious to that kind of stuff. And although he said that he would keep me entertained and text me, long intervals happen, one lasted an hour. I respond then nothing. And i hate having to send another text just to get an answer back. He has also been jokingly asking me to visit him all day. He doesn't understand that if he doesn't seriously ask me, that i wont go. I need to know that he really wants me to visit and it wasn't just a thought that floated through his head... I don't want to fight for his attention, cause i want to give him his space so that i don't suffocate him or anything. I like him more than i thought. And i therefore am second guessing a lot because i don't want to do something stupid and lose him. But i am not that good at reading him, and he isn't very open about his feelings, and i just don't know what to do.
I've been in this weird messed up mood since about 5 pm this evening. And Mr. Clueless over here seems oblivious even though i told him i was in a mood. I just want him to show he cares more.. And the half of me that wants to cry keeps showing its ugly head..

Pissy

I am so F***ing pissed right now. Guys need to understand how easy it is to put girls into moods when they are on their periods. Or at least me. I blame the birth control. Having my hormones regulated makes life hell for the week i'm not on it. And talking to me for 40 minutes about an issue between you are your ex gf is not gonna put me into a cheery mood! Why on earth would it.. When we both know that we should go to bed by 11pm, cause we both have early jobs in the morning, why would you start talking about that subject?? Then say something stupid, and basically log off facebook. UGH!! Getting a text saying sorry and goodnight is not cutting it. I'm seriously gonna boycott his texts tomorrow... I'm pissed.

PMS

I hate that my body knows when I'm close to being on the week off my birth control. PMS is a bitch and i hate blaming things on that, but its true. I already feel like i look bloated, and i'm in a mood. I've actually been pissy all week. Why do girls have to deal with the mess of all that. Guys have it so incredibly easy!!

Bad Dreams..

Lately I've been having bad dreams.. I usually dont remember my dreams, and i know that i have been lately based on the time i go to bed and am waken up by an alarm in the morning, cutting my dream short, but making me remember it.

My dream from last night took me on a wild goose chase. I recall being in Bemidji, I know this because i was with my ex (N) for some reason. Just hanging out with him and our mutual friend A. It was obvious we werent together because i knew i was with K like i am. And i think I was going to school at bemidji still, that was clear cause i couldnt move into my room yet. Which led me to being at N's house.. where i saw his parents. His mom always hated me and always really liked A. So that part of the dream was a horrible reminder of that.
Then the dream turned into me at my house, my old house, the one we sold. And a cleaning crew was there, but they turned into people that posed as a cleaning crew and robbed you of everything.. This is about when i wake up. I think the second part of my dream is that i feel like my house has been taken away from me. Since i lived there my whole life, and suddenly dont have it anymore. And i know its true cause I am tearing up thinking about it.

I just hope this constant bad dream run will stop. Give me a happy dream! Maybe i need a dream catcher again. I had one when i was little, my brother made one and gave it to me cause i had a lot of bad dreams. But then i never really remembered my dreams and i blamed the dream catcher, so i gave it to my sister about a year ago. Might need a new one..