Not So Home Sweet Home

Part of the reason I have been okay with staying at this house during the summer is because I am usually NOT here. I work 9.5 hours a day, 5 days a week. And weekends i usually have plans, thanks to special k. But I am on vacation time from week, which started at about 1:30 this afternoon. And i dont want to be at the house. Especially since the guest bedroom that had been made my room, is now being prepared for their daughter and son-in-law.. so i had to pack up all my stuff and get to share the other guest bedroom with their grand daughter. All of these people coming tomorrow, but I'm out today.. It just isnt my idea of a home at all. I'd rather sleep on a cot at my dad's shop. And i told them that i might spend Wed. night at my parents shop, cause my dad is hopefully driving me to meet Special K thursday morning. But they didnt seem to understand why i would sleep their, and why my dad wouldnt pick me up.

1. my dad is gonna be driving me somewhere, so why would i make him drive even more to pick me up when i am capable of driving to him

2. I am taking time out of my dads day, so i am trying to take as little as possible. It would take more time away from his work day to have to pick me up.

These reasons didnt seem valid or something to them. Not sure why they wouldnt. It makes PERFECT sense to me, and hopefully you. But did they think for even a second that maybe i feel weird staying in a room with their granddaughter? of course not. cause they dont seem to understand that situations become uncomfortable very easily to me..

Sometimes I think they live in a bubble, and dont understand my point of view. So i dont ask god for answers to my questions, Sorry, but he isnt gonna give me an answer. I decided things for myself. And wow, big shocker here, I have my own OPINIONS on things, and voicing them should not be lectured with how some people like things that way. I NEVER said anything other than i like things certain ways for myself. I dont care what others do, thats their choice.

I just want my house back.. or my room at school already.

Can I leave for New York yet??

mood: kinda sad

Grandparents

I have 3 grandparents. In my junior year Grandpa S died after his health continued to depreciate since his stroke. Grandpa S was born on the 4th of July, so i guess this is kinda coming as a shock that my Grandpa K had a stroke today, so close to my other Grandpa's birthday. Grandpa K was air lifted to a hospital, but apparently is stable. It just seems all too familiar. Both having strokes.. It was difficult being around Grandpa S after his stroke. Im not good around sick people... and being at places like the nursing home, or any hospital makes me feel weak.

And now i just feel like all the emotion from Grandpa S's stroke and funeral and everything is hitting me because of Grandpa K's stroke. i guess, i just wish i knew more..

I just want someone to hold me right now.

Special K

This past weekend, my friend decided she was gonna call me and my boyfriend by nicknames. She wants to call me eek cause its my initials, and her name for him was k bar. Now when i heard k bar, i thought of those special k granola bars, so i have tweaked the nickname to special k, cause he is my special k :)

Also, i found out today that special k is invited to my cousins wedding! Which means i'll actually have a date to a wedding. I am super excited. I am also excited for my trip to NY this weekend with him, and for some reason mostly excited for the vb trip the next weekend, well mostly just Saturday night, with the concert and alcohol. It'll just be a ton of fun. Its been forever since i've drank, and its the most fun for to drink with special K, cause i feel more comfortable with the situation and can relax more.

I am so happy with him :)

Power Walking

Some of the days when I drive home from work, i see these two older ladies power walking. One may think this is an ordinary sight, but not in my case. These two ladies both have white-blonde hair, and orange skin... yes, orange. It is way past tan. And they wear rather low cut/revealing outfits to walk in. Not like most older ladies would wear at all. This just confuses me. I mean, the clothes dont really look good on them. It emphasizes the sagginess of their boobs.. I feel like these two women are the future of some of those girls from highschool that worried way too much about their appearance that they looked completely fake. Just wish they could see their future for themselves.

~nooblet

Moody Madness

I swear that boy.. i get into a mood where i am irritated with him and then he always says something to get me out of it without even trying. I had no real reason to be upset at him, just was, and he kept saying cute things like "just think, in 48 hours we will be in bed together :)" and he said "goodnight sweetie" to me tonight. I know that he wishes he could have me in his arms as much as i want to be there, but i just love when he makes it apparent. I cant stay mad at him. (my mad being a slightly irritated, make him take pay for what he said thingy, nothing serious) I just wanna cuddle up to him right now.. still got tonight and tomorrow by myself though. And two days at work with those kids and my 6:20 alarm clock. UGH... Is it my week off yet??

I cant wait for that week. First i get my road trip to New York :) then when i get back a few days of break, and then Waupaca volleyball tournament, all with my guy. And i finally am gonna see my friend again!! :D Still gotta find another guy though!!

"Noob"let

So my name on this blog is nooblet. I chose that name because my guy calls me noob all the time. I personally like nooblet more that noob, gives it more of a girly quality. But i embrace and actually like when he calls me noob. He has also called me nooblet before, because he knows about this blog, even though i wont let him read it. But i wanted to share some new versions of noob that be has called me. Last night he used "noobtastic" and today in texts he used "noobalicious"

I must say that my boyfriend is weird. Most people know about the "see you later alligator" and "in a while crocodile" right? Well who has ever heard of "catch ya later when you're straighter"??

Yep, this is the kind of stuff that i put up with.

~nooblet

Food Baby

I ate so much this evening at Noodles & Company that my tummy is sticking out in a way that makes me look pregnant. I'm pregnant with a food baby! My tummy is protruding out, and im just waiting for it to go back to normal. No more eating that much.. my poor food baby tummy.