I feel like i'm a senior in high school again crushing over blake.. I had a major crush on him for the ENTIRE year. We had band class together, and had mutual friends in the class, so i was around him a lot. When we traveled to California for our trip, i sat with him on almost all the rides at Disneyland, and sat with him on the bus we had for travel in california. He even danced with me at prom. He grabbed my hands and put them around his neck. But he dated one of my best friends early that year and was still very much hung up on his ex.. Still i had the biggest crush on him.
In the same way I have a crush on DD. I texted him that i had a good time at dinner, and i havent gotten a response at all. I know its only been a couple of days, i just have bad feelings about it :/
And you would think that id be over blady by now.. but nope. Seeing him again didnt help. At all. And i know that he has a girlfriend, i know that he is just using me when he talks to me and invites me over, and i know that he is no good for me. But i want what i cant have. I like the thrill of sneaking around, and misbehaving. I just dont like that i dont exist when he doesnt want anything, or that there is no feeling behind anything.
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