Lotsa Stuf

To start off with, I dont think i ever updated about freshie. Well freshie had the audacity to ask me to be his girlfriend on facebook after we had hung out 3 times.. So short story shorter, we are just friends.

I've been super stressed lately. I joined this program at my school that a lot of people dont qualify for, but i do.. so i was basically forced to join. It will prepare me for graduate school after college, but i still dont know what i want to do with my life and this is forcing me to make a lot of decisions very quickly, not to mention all the work that needs to be done.. ugh. All this stress is making me emotional. I need to renew my license and things keep going wrong, so i ended up in tears for a good portion of Friday afternoon. I wish it would just get easier. I can already tell that I am the most unfocused out of everyone else in this program.. I hate being the stupid person in the smart classes..

So there is this guy, lets call him B, which suits him because i know that he is a bad boy type but i find myself drawn to him anyways. My friend absolutely hates him so I dont tell her much about him or our conversations anymore. But he keeps inviting me over to cuddle with him or watch movies. I've been invited over a couple times, but he also has a gf who goes to school an hour away, so i know that he only wants me to come over so that he isnt alone.. I just like getting attention from guys, and usually dont care who it is coming from, but i have a little kindergarten crush on him. When i saw him at volleyball last time, i kept looking over his way, just to look. Along with the fact that he has a gf, i also haven't gone over to his place because we never talk in person, just text and facebook, so things would be royally awkward because its my personality. I'm not a touchy feel-y person. I have to learn to be comfortable with the person first. So me cuddling with B just wouldnt happen. Another reason i havent gone over there is because he always asks me on the nights before my 8 am class, and i need sleep! Although he retaliates saying that he has a very comfy bed, but again, i would feel wrong sleeping in his bed (JUST SLEEPING) with him because he has a girlfriend. AND a very bad reputation of sleeping around.

On a happier note, Wednesday is my 21st birthday!! Hopefully the day will go well, i have a few things planned and a few other options. I'll update you with the aftermath :)