Yes and No

I hate this.. I miss K so much, but its pointless. It doesnt matter that I care for him, that he was instantly part of the family, that i could be myself around him, that i never doubted being with him.. I told nate that i loved him for most of our relationship, but I felt the same about K as i did about N, if not more. But i also hate K, because he doesnt want me. And why do i want someone that doesnt want me? So im angry with myself for still wanting him despite him not wanting me.