Not So Home Sweet Home

Part of the reason I have been okay with staying at this house during the summer is because I am usually NOT here. I work 9.5 hours a day, 5 days a week. And weekends i usually have plans, thanks to special k. But I am on vacation time from week, which started at about 1:30 this afternoon. And i dont want to be at the house. Especially since the guest bedroom that had been made my room, is now being prepared for their daughter and son-in-law.. so i had to pack up all my stuff and get to share the other guest bedroom with their grand daughter. All of these people coming tomorrow, but I'm out today.. It just isnt my idea of a home at all. I'd rather sleep on a cot at my dad's shop. And i told them that i might spend Wed. night at my parents shop, cause my dad is hopefully driving me to meet Special K thursday morning. But they didnt seem to understand why i would sleep their, and why my dad wouldnt pick me up.

1. my dad is gonna be driving me somewhere, so why would i make him drive even more to pick me up when i am capable of driving to him

2. I am taking time out of my dads day, so i am trying to take as little as possible. It would take more time away from his work day to have to pick me up.

These reasons didnt seem valid or something to them. Not sure why they wouldnt. It makes PERFECT sense to me, and hopefully you. But did they think for even a second that maybe i feel weird staying in a room with their granddaughter? of course not. cause they dont seem to understand that situations become uncomfortable very easily to me..

Sometimes I think they live in a bubble, and dont understand my point of view. So i dont ask god for answers to my questions, Sorry, but he isnt gonna give me an answer. I decided things for myself. And wow, big shocker here, I have my own OPINIONS on things, and voicing them should not be lectured with how some people like things that way. I NEVER said anything other than i like things certain ways for myself. I dont care what others do, thats their choice.

I just want my house back.. or my room at school already.

Can I leave for New York yet??

mood: kinda sad