Cookies!

Let me start out by saying that I know this post is gonna jump around a bit, but first off. I get a knock on my door shortly after midnight. The mom of the people I live with has been making cookies!! So i am invited to have one. I was so happy, I love fresh made chocolate chip cookies, I always wished that my own mother would randomly make them when i was home from college for a weekend, but she isnt the baking type. This lady however, LOVES to cook. Any type. She made cookies and potato salad tonight. Prepared to make muffins for tomorrow. And prepared a whole meal for her husband and son to take fishing tomorrow. I must say, the food is a major plus of living here.
Secondly, my friend had an event planned for her friends. I found out that no one showed up. And i really wish I could have been there for her. But summer has separated us, not by too much, but enough to make it an inconvenience. Plus since I found out at about 2 in the morning, there wasnt much I could do. If i was there, I would do something stupid that would make her laugh, which is our way. Because I know her pain.
I talk to about 2 people from high school still, and i dont talk to or see them often. I also have already lost touch with most of the people from my first college. I seem to be a roamer. Not really able to keep friends, and I dont understand why. I try to be nice, I dont do anything mean. I just dont seem to understand. People dont seem to like me for me, so i bother trying after i get blown off enough.
Currently, I just wish I could crawl into my guys bed, and have him hold me. Even though he will fall back asleep super fast cause i woke him up, and as he falls asleep he would roll away, silly boy cant sleep touching people. Also wakes up to the slightest movement, which is why i know he would wake up if i crawled into his bed. But i like him anyways. And he tends to wake up earlier than me anyhow, cause i like my sleep :)