First, I'm a creeper. And I was looking at my ex-boyfriend's facebook page. He has a new girlfriend. And I am happy for him. I realized that I probably wouldn't feel this way if I didnt also have some in my life, or if I hadn't gotten my boyfriend first, because I didnt truly realize that I was over him until I had someone new. And so is the way of life. In my mind, everyone is in some way a rebound. Its just the severity of the rebound that changes. Even crushes are rebounds of other crushes. For me, life is just more exciting having someone in it, even in crush form. Anyways, so I'm happy for my ex, and I wish iI could tell him that and wish him the best, but I know that this girl is probably more of a rebound for him, than Special K is for me.
Secondly, I was thinking about Special K, and realized that I need to think less. I analyze way too much. Not even about him, but about my views of him. Overall I think too much. I dont just go with the flow or let things happen. Which can be a good or bad thing. Example, me dancing. I cant relax and just dance without worrying what other people will think. Which is partly why I like to drink, so that I wont fuss over every little thing that I do.. But to my point. I think over my time with Special K, and I wonder if I like him as much as I think I do. Can you see my problem? I dont know how to not worry over my feelings... hmm.
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