The first night was just horrible, I couldnt stop crying, and i couldnt sleep. I feel asleep around 1 just to wake up at 6:30, funn! And i looked like death in the morning. My eyes were all puffy and disgusting. The first half day at work, i kept trying to hold tears back, then my mom came over o her lunch break to the nanny house, and i started crying. Which was good i think, cause i got through the rest of the day rather well. And only had one short time of tears that night.
I really do think that because he was always so, lets say distant, before we broke up that i am taking the loneliness better than I did last time. I still hate that it had to happen this way because i did really like him, but im dealing.
Basically, i talked to him about what would happen when he would move out west and he said something like long distance not being fair to either of us. And i didnt want to just hang on and wait around for when he got a job offer just to be dumped then. So i'm trying to stay positive. Plus i'll be back at school soon with a whole bunch of guys. Now just to be more outgoing and meet them :)
So there is my update. Havent cried in at least 40 hours! I'm gonna come out stronger from this.
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