This is one of the main reasons that I hate being a girl. Guys have life so much easier. UGH!!
I shouldn't be this upset. I have no real reason, yet all i want to do is cry... And i suppose I should get used to this, but I hate it. I hate being in a long distance relationship. I dont know why I keep finding them. I just want a guy to be around. I want a hug without having to drive an hour. I want to know they care. I want to be able to do stupid random things with them, and not have to plan a visit. I want to at least be able to talk to them.. but even that is often difficult.
Special K is out with friends. And relatively close too. Yet, here I am, sitting in my room, by myself. I was texting him off and on, but i had to ask questions to get responses. I finally wrote something along the lines of "i'll leave you be now" and never got a response back. I HATE feeling this helpless. I hate that i need attention from him to be happy. I hate that i just cant tell him that i am feeling this way because i know he will just say something like "he cant do anything about it".
I just wish that he would talk to me, text me, unprompted. Call me sweetie, or babe, or something.
I wish i knew exactly how he felt.
I hate this feeling. I wish it wasnt this way.
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